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Of all the searched photos, I found this, which truly describes my current, up-to-date mood. It feels sucks, actually.

Not because of exam, (well it does partly related to that) but it's rather about.. a question.

A question, which was being issued by a friend of mine to a lecturer,

Q : Will you choose talents? or.. hardwork?

A : HARDWORK.
(with no hesitation in his voice.)

Really?

Is that just all?

But why I don't seem to be seeing any of this happening in my life? 

Am I being too impatient?

Probably.

Yes, I'm answering this to myself, just to do some self-reminder, before I go from upset to.. depressed.

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Perhaps, it's not enough. Perhaps, I have been too unwilling to wait. Or perhaps, my speed isn't there to fight with time, yet.

You know, the very important test, this time which I shall name it as trials, for short, is extremely important to me all of us, where THIS trials can determine where we actually stand and how far are we from the grades.

To stand beside A's?

It's hard. Really really hard.

Apart of being worried, I've lost some sense of believe and faith a few hours ago. All of my doubts came rushing and messed me up. How in the world can I study not for exam but for myself?

I've gone from normal to a steady stress level to a complete berserk mode during these last-minute-studies.

Being the good child, I've set a discipline plan for self by not tweeting nor facebooking, to avoid these addictive-distractions and also to stay away from the cyberworld unless I really really need it for urgent cases like assignments. :(

BUT THIS does not indicates that I hold my book where-when-ever I go, memorising facts, studying like a geek. No way,

I do sing. I sleep. I eat. I play. I even daydream for most of the time. Because.. I am a human being too!

Now, who has the dare to say that I go for 24/7 study when I do not appear online? Screw you if that thought has ever came across your mind. :(

I could have listed the negative impacts of exams on human beings, physically, mentally as well as emotionally aspects here, one by one but trust me, it is pointless.

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Replace the phrases "do you keep crying" to "are you being sad".

Regret? 

I can't. It has been a mistake that can't be undone, once again. Soon, all these will be compiled into somewhat called helpful lessons for me to become better later on.

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

I hate being the sooooo unlike-self, who is soooooooooooo emotional to the life I'm having right now.

As Mr. L's current status was about,

"On call 47 days for AS."

Yes, now I'm very aware of that, sir. Thank you for the reminder, and thank you for not stopping to give me that kind of hate-able stares which I really really feel upset about whenever I see you.

.......

As time passes by slowly, I've learnt that things are not meant to be taken too seriously. Be satisfied if you have done your best in trying every single thing in life, and that does not exclude the questions in exam no matter how long it takes. As long as there is some effort being poured, you know that you're on the finishing road, but not reaching your destination just yet.

The being-open-minded mindset within me has evolved slowly from a point of view, to another. It doesn't have to be tolerant only to opinions, it also can be applicable in receiving flaws? or simply the mistakes that human beings made in life.

Just two hours ago, I've done watching a movie called,

which I would rate it 3.0/5.0. 

All I can comment is it is just another average, romance movie. A little bit boring but the sense of humour got me til the end.

What caught my attention was sayings like .. .. .... 

1) I have loved her even when I've hated her. 

Only married couples will understand that one.

2) But I can promise you this : 

I will never stop trying.

At least,

I'm feeling so so so much better after all these words being all typed here. Is self-motivating-case like this scaring you? Tell me bout it. (I hope it's not).

That's pretty much the way I release my moodless feeling, not to any person via phone/text/MMS/videocalls/skype/facebook but to a non-living site of mine, here.

Truly sorry if you've spent your precious time and energy reading all these crappy thoughts.

Meanwhile, I'll be having Chemistry Paper 1 tomorrow afternoon and Physic Paper 1 the day after. Am not exactly sure whether I'll ace them or screw them. But most probably it will be the second choice if luck is not on my side.

Just.. .. .. wish me luck?

At this moment, I feel..

 
......

You know.. the moment when you had worked so hard for a particular subject and the question that came out was easy but all you did was making effortlessly stupid-careless -mistakes, losing at least FIFTEEN marks.

Kidding?

I'm not.

You know.. the feeling when you never score above 60 before for a particular subject, yet your not-supposed-to-do's mistakes destroy all your determination and building up a word call frustration in one second. You dissapointed the subject, your parents, your lecturer, and most of all... ... yourself. Yeah it is basically, a mood spoiler.

(soft sigh)

Whatever it is, the battle is still on. Imma have my last paper tomorrow.

Physics, that is.

PS : Thank you, Wei Jan for the comfort and non-stop motivating words.
PPS : It sounds that I'm making a big deal but it is affecting me, making me feel that I'm losing S by chance, slowly.
PPS : I'll be alright :)

PPPS : KEEEP ON FIGHTINGGGG!! :) :)

Tuesday, I almost failed ;

Give me that blue face please.

I don't think my blue face is enough strong to show how upset I am now. Got back my test papers and it wasn't pleasant.  

Not at all.

Ms. Chong was very very shall I say EXTREMEMLY frustrated with us, and our results. > :'(
Did you know how painful it is to dissapoint a lecturer especially a Biology lecturer? FYI, she's pregnant.

I feel so bad for her (and her baby) you know. :( She's such a nice, dedicated lecturer who constantly remind us to stay alert.
Look what have we done?

On the other hand, we are shocked to know that our batch did better than last year's senior batch for Chemistry. YET, that didn't improve my mood any further. My results deteriorated by 16 marks. So enough said.

I so can't wait to get back my failed physics paper. Yay *fake cheers* x___x

:B

Somehow, I knew that this would happen. I didn't regret, but I would want to tell myself..

"SERVE YOU RIGHT"

Arhhhhhhhh.

I can't stay long here by the way.

Gotta work my ass off this time.

Bye, guys!

Uncle Sept is here, people.

1) Went to Book Fair with mum and sis via the train this afternoon.

2)  All Harry Potter series have been SOLD OUT. (wonderful) A book, named "Power Of Six" isn't available in their stock :( Fortunately, I managed to buy myself three reading materials (2 anticipating novels and a photography-guide-book)

3) Wasn't very happy with the outing today simply because I couldn't find the book that I want :(

4) Next, I haven't study finish yet. GREAT HUH?

5) On our way back to town, the KTM system bloody bastards, as usual, pissed us off.  Why? First. They are disrespectful. Pushing the ladies wildly into the train without having some consideration to the passengers who are coming out as their wish like HELLLO?! Second, they showed you their best grins when you told nor pointed them the lady's couch sign. Yeah, they need some tight bitchslap, I am very sure. Thirdly, they pretended that they are in the own world, standing STILL GRINNING, while some even trying to flirt. I was smoking pissed. They are ABSOLUTELY UNDOUBTLY idiots. FTL.

6) Wow. Long rants huh. (refer number five). ANYWAY, the policemen who are in charge at Serdang station chased the bastards away from the train by yelling : SEMUA LELAKI TOLONG KELUAR. /claps claps/

7) Still, they creeped into the pink lady couch again. How SHAMELESS of them.

8) Enough of the rants. Came back home safe and sound. My hand was itchy hence a random photo has been snapped! :D This is all thanks to the quite beautiful sun, here it is! (photo above)

9) I'll be having a mini class gathering tomorrow ;)

10) Of all the mentioned above, treat me better, September. Can you?

Confused Mode On ;

Finally. After hours of spending in front of the desktop, browsing around, as usual :/, looking for pictures to describe how I feel, besides that, I am watching the 8tv quickie at tonton website, yeah the new way to watch tv or whatsoever and is in weheartit dot com plus visualize dot com searching for photos to be published in tumblr andddd (the last 'and', I promise) left a few tabs containing infos about Mass Communication which includes Journalism, Photojournalism, advertising, etc. *exhale

Ha.

So much of my multitasking. 

Apparently, and so you know, if you've been following my twitter, you'll knew that I tweeted lotsa stuffs bout' KLCC, the heart of Kuala Lumpur :)

Of course I wouldn't google "Kay Ell See See" for no reason. The maps, infos and everything that I got last night was pretty much helpful to my trip to there today with my gf <3

Mind you, 'G' stands for girl. Nothing else.

There I go.. Procastinated for awhile again. Go round and round the cyber world, editing pictures in picnik, uploading up to facebook and I am back to blog again.

Where Am I?

Ohh yes. The entire morning was good. Travelled, walked pass through the ang-mos or so you called the English peoples was so darn cool. Other than that, we enjoyed buying tickets as well, so happy that we were almost lost and we took the wrong train.

Pfffts. Where were we? Bangsar, babe.

Went off and stopped at the B station, wait for the Light Rail Transit (LRT) to go back to KL sentral again to go straight to 'Kay Ell See See' ;)

Yeah, we were awesome like that.

Reached the heart of KL at 10.50am, browsed around, can't stop wow-ing, drooling over the food and non-stop eye-ing English men. B) 

Stood in front of the Education Fair Hall at 11 pm sharp, hoping for someone to approach or at least welcome us. Too bad, it was the day of self service. The door had been opened for you, to go in or not, use your brain.
First stop was KDU. The explanation was rather convincing, gf said. HELP was what I hope to go. Been walked and received lots of brochure and signed up in those whatever forms by Segi for twice and more ang-mohs <3 and more tall people (ohh, I feel short there. now I feel the Malaysian guys (: ) and more booths compared to Midvalley's and and and I almost died of carrying those bags like a nowhere aunty. Pfffts :/

Hectic was the word.

After talked with a ang-moh from U.O.Nottingham (a Physcho lecturer) no, he ain't physco but he's a physcho teacher! , not so informative anyway, so we hurried to Pizza Hut's to call for help.
Enough of the starvation, we randomly ordered spaghetti just to make tummy happy. One thing that we loved to do was to press the "CALL" or "BILL" button real damn hard. Freaking syok I tell you.

Reached Kajang station at 5pm and yes Hallelujahh! We can finally go back homeeee (:
Was supposed to take a TAXI to go back home but thanks to Sha's kind-hearted mother, I can escape from finding myself a taxi driver to drive me home. 

She loves me and I love her. She's one of my awesomest girl friend ever :)

Our date today was pretty nice. First one and we'll be continue to hang out more than often, yes? :)
Thank you for laughing at my totally speechless embarassment(s) that I made today. I totally, I mean ALWAYS screw myself in front of the public (-,-) Oh, PK, couldn't you just stop being so messy? :S

...

Mum called. (Mandarin conversation)

How did it go? Did you collect as much information as you want?

Yes

So you make up your mind about your future already?

No

Why? 

Mum, physcho, according to many people there said it has good job perspectives here

Didn't you listen to what doctor S said that day? Didn't you look for other courses?

I did. But I just don't really fancy those business-or-medical-like-careers. 

Can't you change your interest?

*silent*

Look, one can change their own interest though, think properly okay.

*sob* Hmm.

Have you taken your medicine?

*wipes* Urm nope.

Go and have a rest.

Okay. Take care.

...
I was pissed too much to sob. I'm sorry but it's really really hard, you know to make yourself headache all over again after crossing out the list for almost five times and you finally made the decision on what are you going to do but disapprove and discourage by many many people.
Frustrated. Upset. Heart-breaking.

Clueless + Helpless = Don't know what to do.
Look, to tell the truth, I am interested in Life Sciences , Environmental Sciences, or any Biology-related subjects and Physchology. Hate Physics, *pointing to Engineering*, Economy, Politic, Construction and Electronics. Dislike Law, IT, Business, Medics or Pharmacy, Accounting, Fashion Designs and so lots more. Well, you might as well to call me to get a life instead.

Hence the leftovers are Mass Com? Education? and my interested courses? Photography? Journalism?
Ahhhh.

Why don't you go for Accounting? Good question, because I do and studied Account in high school, which I never really master them well cos' I always score a B instead of A+ though I always tell self that I can get A+ for every exam which I think it seemed to fail because I don't think I can score excellently well for SPM. So forget about it. 

Business? I sweared when I was 14 that I will not touch nor love business ever since I witnessed papa's depression. Enough said. 

My mood sucked so much a few hours ago and still suck now, having some kind of emo feelings of wanting to throw something out of the window and see the window glass cracked or worse, smashed into pieces.

Wait, are you still reading this?
God bless you.
...

Mum was suggesting you know, to go for courses that can get job easily and she advices me to study physcho when I work, like how Sue Yen sis is practicing now. :/

Haaaaaaaa. Thinking back all those lecturers saying "Please come to our workshop!" , "Don't you waste your time anymore", "Come for our Jan intake. It's on next Monday *smirks*".

is so annoying me. I might not go for any colleges cos' parents couldn't afford to pay the fees okay?
:/
Thought of depending scholarship, but the requirements are killing.me.especially.
9A's (no A- at all ) and above. 10A+ to get a full scholarship. Impossible, I tell you.
Plus, most of the scholarships doesn't offer physcho. Behhhh, BOO ME :(

So I thought of changing my mind, like Mum said. 

I got to know some info about Mass Com today. That freaking lady, (lecturer I mean) from UCTI scared me.
" Haiyoh. Why are you so quiet ah?" "You have no questions one ah?" "You see. You don't talk, I do the talking all the time" and then laughed alone.
I was uh-huh all the while and what did you expect me to talk when you are explaining?
She totally freaked me out. Advertising, PR (Public Relation), and Journalism came across my mind. But I fancy Journalism more than the other two.

"Do you love to write" yeah. "Do you love to read" yeah. "Do you.. .. .. blas" err maybe?

I can say, my answers made her speechless. Haha. I wins!
...

Googled journalism just now. I found photojournalism is interesting instead :) I suck at writing and expressing my thoughts, really.
*sigh*

Just I really really hope to find a way out of all these.
Still haven't e-mail Aunty H yet to ask her opinions. I need different point of views, seriously, especially from seniors, teachers, the experts, whoever.

Guide me to get out of this confusion world, please?

.....

PS :

Bro might bring back some crocs for us sisters. :O

And he MIGHT buying this

PowerShot SX130 IS

:D

My mood is so awesome now :)

Strong Wills ;

I actually googled "Resolutions" and found the thesaurus of the word. One of them is my blog title today.
To not make things bored ;
it's already the New Year. Fast? Yeap, 2011 is a blink. It seems that the yesterdays are ticking in a way I can't imagine. Too fast, I mean. No, this shouldn't be like this.
Can anyone of you please freeze the time and let me make a few more blogpost for 2010, I beg you pretty please? :)
..

Nahh. I'm kidding. It's time to face the reality.
Sad to know that, I haven't had enough time to complain about 2010 :P Ehehe, yes. My rants are unstoppable yawww!
Shall I continue this year? I might consider that

Perhaps I should be thankful more than anything.

Here ARE the list of suck-ish moments and happy moments throughout 2010 ;

1. I had one of my worst Sports Year ever. No offence, but wasn't it supposed to be more festive-like as it's the 50th Sports Day?
2. I sick a lot. Disease seems to love me more than anyone do.
3. Procastination and lazy-ness seized me. Stupidstupidstupid.
4. Optimistic hates me this time. Pessimism like me more :(
5. Self-motivation did not work well this year. EPIC fail.
6. Very disorganized and very unsystematic.
7. Did things in a very clumsy way. 
8. A complainer more than a grateful girl.
9. Enjoyed last year of high school life? Not really
10. Tend to holding the past rather than releasing them away
11. Always compare. FTW! This is idiot.
12. Awards-related-shows or even American Idol was boring.
13. Hosting by some hostess is getting worse. Thumbs down.
14. I have this kind of uncertain feeling always.
15. Blog transferred from WLS to WP to BLG. Had a tough time importing and exporting the posts =.=
16. Did not literally enjoy much this year
17. Did not have a good New Year's Eve or even eve of the New Year's eve.
18. Encountered lots of personal issues which caused me mental breakdown
19. Got embarassed by " .. " teacher for accidentally saying stupid words. Insulted like shit.
20. Ranted more than ever when teacher gave a special task cos' I was tiring and kept complaining
21. Some of the cekgu were unreasonable, which made me mad, real mad.
22. Exams killed.
23. Was kind of rude and blurted out words that hurt (sometimes) I'm sorrrry :(
24. Spent a lot of time daydreaming instead of serious studies.
25. Has been a little hot tempered and emotional throughout the year. So not me :(

1. CNY was fabulous!
2. Birthday celebration was a massive bomb. Lovelovelove <33
3. Tumblr is my source of inspiration, never fail to cheer me up! :)
4. Earth Hour retweeted my tweet, LOL. Hahah
5. I got placings for Merentas Desa like hellyeah ;) Improvement!
6. Had one of my best tension-less Saturday ever <3
7. Balloon party was A.W.E.S.O.M.E :]
8. Celebs came to our school and our face popped in front of a newspaper AND magazine. 
9. Amazed by Taylor University's College's FACILITIES especially the library. :O Heaven man!
10. Self-conducted-Chemistry-was-a-huge-success! Indeed we got the champion. *mad proud :)
11. The leadership course in Mint was not that bad. I became quite sporting. Heheh.
12. Last day of school before SPM was rather emotional but memorable ;')
13. Was a photographer during graduation <33
14. Remember Moral day? :) We had lotsa fun and was honoured to be one of the most sporting group :) Hey! I was one of the evil character in a sketch like duhhhh :P Nice :)
15. Friendship between classmated tighten :) Love them whenever they're so active not passive :)
16. I can see a lot of improvement in myself as in photography :) Look at my flickr! Received lots of positive feedbacks which made me smile :)
17. Worked extremely hard for Add Maths and was sure can score at least an A for SPM :) *proud of myself once again*
18. Malaysia won the Suzuki Cup recently. Woweee :D
19. Managed to blast every of my close friend's birthday I guess? :)
20. Made a lot of *NEW* friends for both genders :) Mainly from tuition, tumblr and twitter. 
21. Had a great Chem tuition teacher this year :)
22. I got PLKN :)
23. Me and my Aussie cousin are getting closer.
24. People saw my efforts :)
25. My instict is like the future-predictor :) Always true and hit the fact.

So yeah. These are my ups and downs.

It was a very tough year to me. Sorry for the late updates, as my mum's sick lately, I need to take care of her.

Good Day y'all :)

Happy Belated New Year! <33

Suck ;

A million sorries for not updating my blog live on Thursday. I've been busy writing on other people's walls on facebook :P which caused me to sleep at 3.30 am in the morning :)
I don't know why but the internet line nowadays just suck.suck.SUCK [!] *curse*
Did you know that I got a few long blogpost to write and you're amazingly SUCK? Oh, c'mon, don't try to make my holidays upset cos' I'm already enough depressed.(=.=)

I can't upload any picture, can't online properly and this is all thanks to you, Maxis Broadband :S I'm sorry but that really ruined my day. Grrrrrrrrr.
Anyway, starting from tomorrow until the next two weeks, I'll am going to be a full-time housewife, doing all the house chores (including cooking, washing cleaning and ironing) and help my pa in taking care of the shop while others are happily enjoying their holidays at somewhere far from Malaysia. I.am.pathetic, I know -.-
Ha, I'll take that as a life challenge then, (what can I do somemore other than living an optimistic life? ) to train myself to become more independent. Seriously, I can't imagine my life after SPM started with something like this. I don't have enough hang-outs you know. My heart has been really itchy and kept yelling,
"I WANT TO GO AUSSIE!" or "I WANT TO GO FOR MOVIES!"
Cis. I'll try my best to occupy my time with something good, like reading the unread novels. Ahhhh yes, that's how I'm going to live for two weeks.
Pfffts, this is a very short update from me. Blogpost about graduation and celebration after SPM will be posted soon. Do wait for me! ♥

Au revoir.

P/S : I hate to be a outdated person. Please, internet, please. I promise to treat you good if your service makes me happy. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Emo-licious ;

By Stevpas68

Maybe. Just maybe.

I'm sad.emo.upset.depressed. or whatever how you describe the word > unhappy.
For several reasons, Saturday is stupid.
Number one : I scored badly in self-Add-Maths-test. [That's a strong reason to make my curvy-U-smile to turn into BIG-n-smile] Number two : I made some stupid effingly (yes I repeat) STUPID embarassment. [Stupid enough until I want to knock my head until I faint] Number three : Am not confident in whatever I do. [Why, oh why? ] This is so sickening :/ Number four : Own a kind-of-low-self-esteem. I feel myself so SUCK-ISH again. All the negative thought came back to me again. Damn, slap me, will you? :3 Number five : Chatting with Thenmoli and Shahiela about how our high school life is ending soon is making me ultra sad. Double double n-smile. Number six : I feel sad simply because everything ends too fast. I hate being too realistic some times. Bear with me :/ Number seven : I hate myself being so emo at this time which will distract my studies (since it had been so far so suck or you may say BAD) *hesitates* No, this shouldn't be the right time to turn emo, PK.

No number eight and so on. I believe these are somewhat I call as reasons I am quite emotional today.
Ifeellikecrying.
Yes, I do. I ain't lying. Refreshing all the memories that we had, the good and bad, I WANTTOSOBLIKESERIOUSLY!
:'(
When Ally posted something on my wall, I feel like sobbing more. Awwwww, she's just one sweet, lovely besty of mine.

....
You know what? I actually forgave everyone. Yes, everyone including those who tried to hurt me, who scolded me for zero reason, those who slapped-whacked-knocked me unpurposely, those who misunderstood me for nothing, and also those who hate me. I used to hate them, dislike their words-actions or anything, but i forgave them all. I don't dislike them anymore.

No reason, but forgiving is letting go the past, and what I hope for is that they won't try to do the same thing anymore. I understand, everyone do has flaws and all of us do mistakes. No one is 300% perfect though. Thus, forgiving them is the best thing I can do and I tell you what, forgiving people who does mistakes make me happy, like really :) I don't treat them as I used to be. I am trying to understand their problem and try my best to be a good and true friend :) Everyone deserve to be loved you know. We can't just simply ditch them aside from the society just because of the careless silly mistake that they make. It's unfair and everyone should be given a chance to recorrect and improve to become a better person.

And I learnt that, friendship requires sincerity, honesty and loyalty. I want to be sincere in every friendship I have. I want to treasure them, not destroying them by backstabbing my friends or do anything harmful to them. That's how I wanna apply in life.

Currently, I'm trying to learning to forget the past. I mean, I will not delete the good memory but I'll definitely sack the bad one out. Keeping them inside me is making me so sad and dull.

Kaykaykay. I crapped a lot. Don't stop me. I am just feeling a little down today. And to those who read my diary regularly, I am telling you that this is my officially EMO-SAD post. A real one.

P/S : I don't used to write sad post here, seriously.
PP/S : I honestly wanna thank to my number one BF > Nur Shahiela Chao for making the effort to find lyrics and sing me a song when I am down. She hasn't sing to me yet but before midnight, she'll promise to cheer me up in a bit. I <3 her lots!
PPP/S : Thank you if you're reading this emo-licious post. Don't get emo after that! HAHA (Ooops, I'm happy back :) )

To me, myself ;

According to me , i've been so busy, so not free nowadays. Life is HECTIC!

Totally running out of time. Ohh ohhhh, i'm a pro waste-timer, remember? *winks*

Me have a terrible headache almost everyday. Ever wonder Why? Look at the list below ;

1. I've been procastinating like nobody's business. Stupidme.
   
   
2. Too many homeworks [ EXCUSE-EXCUSE-EXCUSE, i could have use the "online" times to complete it though ]
   
   
3. Nostalgia Tingkatan 5. (=,= ) Am having a tough times editng the pages using photoshop :/
   
   
4. Teacher's Day is arriving, lmao! D: Ohhh mannnnnn. *finger-cross* I'm running out of idea :O
   
   
5. Kad Sahsiah :S It's a card where we needa collect as many signatures as possible from the teachersla, of course. But, we need to be good. As in, SMILEWIDE. Extra point >> Help teachers :D The more signature you get, the higher the chances to get 20% marks for Sivic test. Wtf right. 
   
   
6. I've been very tired lately. VERY. :(
   
   
7. I'm a hypotension person i think. Believe or not? :L
   
   
8. Language Month Activities. Seriously-no-offence, i hate it. Extra work, extra burden. The tension is not eased at all. Sorry :(
   
   
9. I've no time to study everything already. It's too late. I should get a slap. Please?
   
   
10. Teach me how to chill.
    
    
11. Can i pass add maths this coming test? :(
    
    
12. Can i do well in Physics and Chemistry this time? 
    
    
13. Now Biology and History worries me too ;( Too much to read.
    
    
14. Can i maintain my English and Malay essays? Can i cope and remember everything about komsas?
    
    
15. Can i turn my lazyness to hardworking? 
    
    

Tell me i can.

March is certainly NOT for me :X

Definitely and i'm VERY sure it's not.MARCH, i hate you. 

Well, no offence. The reason i said so was because I was sick for the whole bloody month.

Sadface. Sourface.

Can you imagine? 

Starting from the week before the monthly test until now, If you're my classmate, i'm sure u'll get annoyed by my voiceless tone and irritating coughs :(

I'm sorry aites.

Blame who? > The weather.

Why not me? > HEY, i drank ALOT of water okay.You can simply ask my friends, I don't drink a bottle of water a day, instead i drink 8 bottles of water. Ha, you think? Plus,  I didn't like eat those spicy-oily-crunchy-crispy-food-or-whatever-junk-food- kay. I was being an obedient girl. Awewwww NOT :L Seriously.

The weather is not behaving. If yes, it behaved extremely badly. 

Sekejap panas gila nak mampus, sekejap hujan ibarat nak banjir.

APA MACAM? Snot face [haha, steal it from Faezarose] ;P

Sore throat

Fever

Coughs- worst coughs ever *rolls eyes*

Flu - NOW :(

It's like the phlegm wouldn't let go of me, why phlegm? :( Do you hate me that much? :(

Continuous sick-and-fell-ill is not nice, not pleasant, SUCK to the max i tell you :( :( :(

Apparently, i consumed the medicine like nobody's business.

3 packets of different med. Imagine. This is my third time eating the medicine and it's the THIRD packets.

How ewww that my body's now fulled of drugs. SHEEEEESH

Not fun okay. I'm very sick of it and yeah i superrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr hate it.GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR *emo*

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Guides today were supposingly have a meeting to finish up their kelas dua and pra perlantikan renjer for the form fours and form threes.

Suprisingly not, the rain came. WEEEEEEEEEEEEE   

Ha, i was not smiling because we were having difficulty to carry out any activity, which made me go shit shit shit,

And we have to delay and postpone the whole activity to the following week when teachers announced that we can go back even it's just a short 15 minutes meeting. 

I really want to finish up the ujian for the two forms as soon as possible. BUT *sigh*

 All my plans are destroyed. :/ HAIHHHHHHHH

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Of course, March is still a good month, well sort of *sarcastic*

First and foremost, we don't have much homeworks to do per week :D :D :D

Secondly, we have sukantara right, so like you can run or whatever you want to do in the field :D

Thirdly, we have our monthly test. HAHA, nahhhhIt's not an AWESOME month to me.

 It's the worse so far :/

What about you?

PS: ERGH I HATE MARCH

PSS: I've been so BENGANG this bloody month

PSSS : I'm sorry ya if i hurt you :( Forgive my sillyness and stupidity :(

secondmonthlytest,

Familiar eh? Yes, that test has passed 3 weeks ago, i haven’t mention my results, have i? =X
AS WHAT I HAVE EXPECTED, it sucked. and Really SUCKED!
i got 6 A’s , 2 B’s, 1 C and a marvelous D . *shook head*
A’s for BM , ENGLISH , BIO , MORAL , ACCOUNTS , and HISTORY
B’s for Maths [urghhh, so sh*t] , and Physics [hmm, well ]
C still for Chemist [it is belong to youu. ;( ]
very very VERY bad right? i mean D. i got D for add maths. i wasn’t happy [that’s for sure] and wasn’t so sad either =P, because there is only one person got “A” and there are numbers who failed. Of course i was quite upset to get such bad results. 45 , [ suppose to be 44 (E ! ) god, no. Teacher added one mark] so, yeah. as you can see, weeks before the test, i was really-really busy. Busy with carnivals, pandu stuffs, and many-more. Obviously, i don’t have time to study, duhh [ nah, that’s a so lame excuse].  i’m making so much stupid excuse. ACTUALLY, to one who know what i did before i study, i ONLINED everyday. or should i BOLD and make it larger? ONLINED.  hear that?
spending times on facebook and many others wasting-time website. =( SEE? i deserved to get that results.
add maths, i still confused with the logarithms, oh shooooot! haih *sigh*.. and my carelessness makes my whole paper to become WORST! [should do more ex]
i am not satisfied with my BM marks, sorry to say. eventhough it is an A, but i still feeling so geram at myself. it’s not because i get lower marks, but it’s like the common mistakes that i should not make! *sigh*
I am not sure what position will i get this time, just hopefully it wouldn’t drop that low. [scared mum scold and nag]
i think i made my mum dissapointed again, because she told me to improve the C’s . instead, i still remain the C’s and even got a D. =(

Subjects that i need to work hard on,
* Maths [need lotsa exercise on chapter Circles and Probability]
* Add Maths [Logarithms and Statistics]
*Chemistry [chapter 4 and 6]
*Physics [ From the beginning of the chapter]
*History [learn to understand]
Yeah. That’s it!
Mind: Pei Khim, oh Pei Khim, you know you don’t go for any tuition  except for Bm and Eng ,pls work hard on the other subjects. you know  exactly why you don’t go for tuition for your weak subjects right. pls workkk hard.. prove that you can do it!  seek for teacher if you don’t understand ! they really depend on you in the future. pls try not to waste any cents. okay? alright? =(( *in a begging tone*
i might sound insane but it is one of the way to push myself to move forward. i need to work really really harrd. form four is the basic for everything in form 5. i should cut down play time [seriously] , JIAYOU, JIA YOU! JIA YOUUU! [which means WORK HARDDD] ;D
believe that you ,yourself you can do it alright? ;) smiles and cheers!

PS : congrats to eee munn who got a set of very fabulous results this time! congrats to  shahiela too who has improved alot ;) [ keep it up! ]
PSS : am happy that ally dear has improved her add maths! gratz dear. but still need to work hard on the other subjects k. ;)