Frust-

In this house of five, everybody has a role. Unity and harmony will not appear by its own without significant effort by each of them. 

What frustrates her the most is, everyone (except the youngest) loves to display egoistic character no matter what occasion. Together with stubborn trait that is glued in them, how to come together as one, you tell me?

Every single year. she has to deal with this nonsensical (can be solved) matter. Every 365 days she has to hear and bear with heart stabbing questions and answers. And for 16 years she has to overcome all sorts of negative comments, smirks, sarcasms, and hateful intentions from people about her loved ones.

Seriously, guys. Stop it.

The youngest one is tired.
Tired of being the centre of communication for everyone. She is tired of passing the message around, feeling frustrated with the answers (some times) and she has to channel the message to the person who asked the question, leading to even more frustration on both sides. 


The youngest one is helpless.
Sometimes she doesn't know what to do to help to improve the situation. Talk it out? She tried but it was pointless. And she has no one to express the matter to. Because no matter how much she express, the person she expresses to can only listen, cannot help much.


The youngest one wants to be appreciative but is too sad to do so, sometimes.
It is really hard to be grateful especially when you are upset. Sometimes she thought, "if someone does not appreciate your move/action, why do you have to be the one who initiates/do so much every single time? Why must you let your heart hurt even more?"


The youngest one has learnt to be selfish.
Selfish, in this situation means, she has learnt to love herself more than everybody else, to the point that she cares less of people's welfare, etc. Because she thinks that if she waits for people to make herself happy, her heart has already died a thousand million times.
Besides, she even thought of escaping and have an independent life as soon as she can to be freed from all these.
Selfish, selfish but she just can't help it.


The youngest one feels less inspired lately.
Don't know why, (maybe it was due to the recent heavy workload of assignments) she felt less inspired than usual, rant more than usual and feel less positive than usual. But she is glad to come across Dr. Mike's twitter account, which he posted quite a number of positive quotes either from himself or from the internet, it actually comforted her, a lot. Thank you, Dr. :)


Worry not, the youngest child just feels a little down lately, just need a little space to type it all out, not to brag to the whole world of what she is encountering. 
She will be back stronger, feeling more inspired and more positive after this.


She just hopes everything will be okay. 
Strength! 💪


xx