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14/1/2015 ;
One of the most anticipated and scariest days in semester three had ended not so perfectly but at least with a comforting smile :)
Not perfect because, imperfections are always there. Flaws are always unavoidable.
Comforting smile because I am glad that my case was pretty straight forward and it wasn't too complicated for me to be panic or to the point that I went completely blank. At least my performance just now was okay, just some minor mistakes here and there.


Be crazily curious, self. Practice everyday, do more NCP, improve!



As usual, I had my sleep-deprived hours on the day before. I cannot sleep for very long hours because it will be too relaxed for me, which sometimes I can forget a lot of things. I know this is terribly unhealthy but I am being serious. Stress liddis works. My eating pattern will be altered as well, from the usual big portion to smaller portion or sometimes I can just settle with some biscuits for dinner.

Enjoying the clouds where ever I go. #justbeingpk

Currently, it's the post-clinical assessment! Woohoo
The next assessment to focus on is "Client teaching" assessment which is happening this Friday. /oh god I have not prepared all my contents for my flip chart oh god/
Anyways, for today's assessment, I am glad to be pinpointed, commented and corrected for a better future. Some compliments really made me happy that day.


 "Otherwise, your communication skills is good. I can see the rapport between you and your patient. I also can see great professionalism in you. Keep that up!" :))



16/1/2015 ;

Spent hours to decorate ze flipchart, spent a sum of money in printing those spine-chilling images, I have only one hope in my heart; that is to be able to deliver the 'message' -consequences of tobacco usage on health to my SP (simulated patient), at least 75% of it.

Well, my client teaching assessment was at 10.30 this morning. I was hellafreakingnervous, also shaky due to the cold air-cond. After the teaching session was done, all my organs yelled "Phew!", a sign of relief! :D

During Q&A session, positive feedback are very generous, tho' I find some are a little bit over-exaggerated, whereas negative feedback given are countable, mostly my mistakes, something that I appreciate that they did point 'em out yet at the same time encourage and teach me another alternatives to make it better next time. /glad/ Needless to say, I am thankful.

Thank you, dear lecturers ;)


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It's not easy to educate a smoker, I'd say. The rate of being non-compliant is always high.

"They do not see the consequences in the long run. Most of them will be like, oh really? Cancer only. So what?", said a friend of mine.

That's pretty true. The impact isn't there, it isn't visible until it hits them. I guess that applies to us, as normal human beings isn't it? 

We don't know what we have done wrong until something bad happen to us. I guess that's why this pose as a challenge for me to educate patients/anybody who smokes. 

Easy to deliver the words, but will the words really will be absorbed deeply to the heart, to the brain to send signal to the rest of the body saying, "Hey, stop smoking. Tobacco smoke is causing harm to all of us." I guess 90% not. 
If one has the desire to change, one must have a strong determination to do so, then with constant effort in mind to achieve the target.

And I failed to do that today. I mean, I educate for the sake of educating, I never really consider whether my SP really feel the 'fear' or the 'effect' of tobacco smoke does to our body. Instead, I asked, "Do you understand what I was saying?" expecting a yes or no answer. 

I should HAVE asked open ended questions to probe my SP to talk more than I do. But then again, I was given only 15 minutes to teach, I was more worried about the time more than whether patient really do take note on what I have just said. Such a task-oriented person, am I? Battling your task with time at the same time making sure your challenging goal is achieved sucks. I somehow am not a master of that YET. But I will be able to prove it to myself that I can do it one day. Slowly, taking one step at at time, 

I WILL
reach the peak, 
I WILL 
overcome the challenge one day.



A challenge will not be a challenge if I take it as one of my weakness/fear.
A goal will not be achieved if I ever ever tell myself, I cannot do it.



Be a starter, be someone who initiates, who knows you'll be the first one who leads the path and something unexpected will come in return?

Photo taken this morning at one of my friend's house, vista B2- featuring sunrise accompanied with uni's silhouette and balcony's rooftop.


Just like this picture, if you don't have the initiative to wake up early, will you have the chance to enjoy view like this? No. Everyday's view is different - in another word, every opportunity that comes is always different. Seize the moment. Once it's gone, it's never going to be the same again.


So be a starter to change. Change for the good, change for a better world.