I believe I can fly ;

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1) Life's distractions : Laptop. Maxis broadband. Bed. Daydreaming. 

Hi. I set rules for self. A day without twitter, facebook and dear blogger. Isn't that a simple task to do?

I believe.. 

it's a yes.

But hell, nothing much were being stuffed into my brain today. Chemistry?
Only chapter two and a few lines of equations uncounting the crazy lots of.. .. .. fainting facts.

Biology? I've started nothing yet. Ha.ha. CHEEEEEEEEEEEERS.

Testestestestestestestestestestestestestestestestest. 

Man, I want to die.
or perhaps,

I wish I am smarter.

As you can see, (refer to the 4th life distraction that I crossed out), thoughts can't stop coming in, imagination can't stop bring me to nowhere. Even staring on the wall while studying becomes interesting. *facepalm

That makes me a great thinker, I assume. What worse was, my head tend to land on the table after halfway reading facts and oops.

Of course, the snooze button of the red alarm clock of mine was pressed (i think urmm.. ) at least 5 times just to remind self that it's time to study but the so called "adventurous" dream happening in my brain was just too addictive to stop. #epicfail

The mood to study eventually disappeared since I reached home on Friday night.

2) Dear everyone,

Do you know the definition of home?

A comfy place to rest - our body, our mind with our family.

That's MY definition of home, mind you.

Undeniable that my Kajang room is not the best place to chew in facts. (okay. Noted).

or..

I daydream unnecessary-impossibilities too much. (okay. Noted)

Should get rid of this immediately. Come on, self-control.

3) Been reading many updated blogs recently. Those words in each stories are beautiful, inspirational. I see how grown-up my best pal is now. Her thinking, her maturity have reached to an amazing level which sparks me some jealousy right here, right now. She is  climbing and improving herself constantly to a stage where all the adults are standing at current.
Afterall, it's a part of growing up, isn't it?

I feel so proud. :')

For the rest of the diaries I've read, I sense many things hidden, left unrevealed. There's something behind their life that is so mysterious which intrigued me. When you talk to people publicly, you only get to touch the surface, the surface of their biography, not knowing what's stored inside their heart, their brain - the real situations that are beyond expectation. If you're curious like me, you'll feel like knowing more, to the point that you wish to grab and shake the anyone to tell you all just to let your intense-desire-to-know die. But all this. takes. time.

Yeap.

That's apart of the reason that I don't practice "judging people by appearance". Judging without knowing the deeper side of a matter is brutally wrong.

The action of comparing self to brilliant people out there aroused after did the stalking-reading. All the self-esteem and confidence have dropped from three hundred to negative ten.

Been continually wishing this and that but not being grateful for what I have now. The life that I'm living now, the house that I'm living now, the things that I own now, the healthy soul that is living now. Why must I wish for more?

Alright. Self-esteem and confidence have boosted to five hundred percent again.

4)

-Never expose too much of your weaknesses to anyone else. 

No one is going to help you, but yourself.

Lesson that I have realised that it actually exists, lately. It simply is giving people a chance to look down sympathically at you, judge blindly, speechless, as well as smile helplessly at you.

5) I miss reading like a drug addict.

Speed-reading reduces tension within me. And it's nice to spend your time really focusing on a story that the author is trying to say. Probably, I'll restart this habit again by.. this month?

....
6) Have you ever wondered why would I type all this out?

My advice is, don't think too much if you reckon me being all emotional suddenly. I am not, in fact.

Just.. I don't like keeping these thoughts spinning around and it will be best  to express them out here rather than jailing them in the organ inside my head. :)

7) I just don't get why some of my readers tell me : AWESOME POSTS with a thumbs up. *laughs

I don't think you'll say that word out loud ANYMORE after reading more of posts like this.

xD

8) I am, yet smiling when I'm typing all this. Stress is immediately, DELETED! :)

9) Later in the afternoon, I'm going to follow my sister to her working place- The Mines Shopping Centre as to change my study location to overcome all these LIFE DISTRACTIONS mentioned above. I know, and I believe, that  I can do it.

:)

In the meantime, I'll spend my breaks by exploring the whole building, to search for new sport shoes that I want, checkered tee that I've yearned for, to discover beautiful things around me and restock my food supply at Giant hypermarket.

Note checked. note checked. note checked.

It will be all good.

10) Why not?