Emo-licious ;

By Stevpas68

Maybe. Just maybe.

I'm sad.emo.upset.depressed. or whatever how you describe the word > unhappy.
For several reasons, Saturday is stupid.
Number one : I scored badly in self-Add-Maths-test. [That's a strong reason to make my curvy-U-smile to turn into BIG-n-smile] Number two : I made some stupid effingly (yes I repeat) STUPID embarassment. [Stupid enough until I want to knock my head until I faint] Number three : Am not confident in whatever I do. [Why, oh why? ] This is so sickening :/ Number four : Own a kind-of-low-self-esteem. I feel myself so SUCK-ISH again. All the negative thought came back to me again. Damn, slap me, will you? :3 Number five : Chatting with Thenmoli and Shahiela about how our high school life is ending soon is making me ultra sad. Double double n-smile. Number six : I feel sad simply because everything ends too fast. I hate being too realistic some times. Bear with me :/ Number seven : I hate myself being so emo at this time which will distract my studies (since it had been so far so suck or you may say BAD) *hesitates* No, this shouldn't be the right time to turn emo, PK.

No number eight and so on. I believe these are somewhat I call as reasons I am quite emotional today.
Ifeellikecrying.
Yes, I do. I ain't lying. Refreshing all the memories that we had, the good and bad, I WANTTOSOBLIKESERIOUSLY!
:'(
When Ally posted something on my wall, I feel like sobbing more. Awwwww, she's just one sweet, lovely besty of mine.

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You know what? I actually forgave everyone. Yes, everyone including those who tried to hurt me, who scolded me for zero reason, those who slapped-whacked-knocked me unpurposely, those who misunderstood me for nothing, and also those who hate me. I used to hate them, dislike their words-actions or anything, but i forgave them all. I don't dislike them anymore.

No reason, but forgiving is letting go the past, and what I hope for is that they won't try to do the same thing anymore. I understand, everyone do has flaws and all of us do mistakes. No one is 300% perfect though. Thus, forgiving them is the best thing I can do and I tell you what, forgiving people who does mistakes make me happy, like really :) I don't treat them as I used to be. I am trying to understand their problem and try my best to be a good and true friend :) Everyone deserve to be loved you know. We can't just simply ditch them aside from the society just because of the careless silly mistake that they make. It's unfair and everyone should be given a chance to recorrect and improve to become a better person.

And I learnt that, friendship requires sincerity, honesty and loyalty. I want to be sincere in every friendship I have. I want to treasure them, not destroying them by backstabbing my friends or do anything harmful to them. That's how I wanna apply in life.

Currently, I'm trying to learning to forget the past. I mean, I will not delete the good memory but I'll definitely sack the bad one out. Keeping them inside me is making me so sad and dull.

Kaykaykay. I crapped a lot. Don't stop me. I am just feeling a little down today. And to those who read my diary regularly, I am telling you that this is my officially EMO-SAD post. A real one.

P/S : I don't used to write sad post here, seriously.
PP/S : I honestly wanna thank to my number one BF > Nur Shahiela Chao for making the effort to find lyrics and sing me a song when I am down. She hasn't sing to me yet but before midnight, she'll promise to cheer me up in a bit. I <3 her lots!
PPP/S : Thank you if you're reading this emo-licious post. Don't get emo after that! HAHA (Ooops, I'm happy back :) )