Life is a bitter-sweet

Everyone has their respective flaws, so do I. 
There is always a hidden (most sensitive) flaw in a person which he/she does not wishes to reveal. 
Because afterall, it hurts.
Because afterall after sharing sad thoughts to friends, and expecting a comforting answer in return is not gonna be 100%ly work because their level of understanding compared to mine is just different.


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I have been repeating the same old (bad) habit, for years.

For I don't know how many solid reasons I've told myself to stop that bad attitude and temper, it just comes naturally again and again especially when frustration comes along.
And I don't know how many reflections I did to not repeat the same thing again but it always , always fail.


I really don't care what people think, really. What matters is that attitude/behaviour/temper of mine is wrong. Shouldn't have thrown tantrums, shouldn't have let emotions take over everything.
Where is my great patience in this situation, I wonder?
Where is the critical thinking skills in this situation, I thought?

I guess, it has become a 'used-to' habit but NO.
You can change that, self. You can.
It's just a matter of changing it, maintaining it, and always always keep your ego down.



Respect. Mannerism. Patience. Kindness.



You can always object but with good reasons and good intonation. Try to speak at a low tone and professional manner. You always believe that communication solves problem and you certainly do not wish arguments happened due to miscommunication and misunderstanding, don't you?

Think wisely, self.
You are no longer a teen or a child. Rather, an adult who is supposed to think and act better.
Be extra empathy, especially to the elders.

It's always useless to type the thoughts without transform 'em to actions. Don't make fall promises to yourself, again.
Try. Slowly, it's okay.
Try.



Cuz' if you don't, and if time does not permit, you'll never get a chance to be what you wished to be again.