Title : Love Confession

First and foremost, a great apology for the late blogpost to those who is regularly checking out my blog, and those who is waiting for my this. 

By vanessa.paxton

Needless to brag, the blogtitle says it all. I wanna confess my love to someone something. 

No, really! I mean, it's something, not someone.

I'm pretty pretty pretty sure.

And you did not read wrongly.

*dissapointing cheers

Boo-ing me, are you?

To NOT dissapointing you further, I advice you to close this tab immediately or you'll yawn til' bored.

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You still reading?

There you go my "little" secret : 

Dear Physics,

I've had a crush on you ever since I knew you in 2009. No, I hate you when we first met. You're so bloody annoying that teared my heart apart in every arrival of the test no matter big or small. I ALWAYS have a hard time communicating with you, trouble in solving your problem, imsomnia every night thinking of you. But why, Physics, tell me why that you need to torture me to the extend that I can't figure you in and out. You made my heart skip a beat whenever the results are out. You melted me down when I'm delighted. You are so effing challenging that I am unable to catch you tightly. Illogical brain in me makes you feel that I don't suit to be your girlfriend, isn't it? I've been working extra hard, I even dumped my Add Pure Maths for you. Love me back, will you?

Sincerely,

Me.

Typical letter that most teenager will write these days. So unrealistic and stupid, I would say. How can you expect the subject to love you back when you don't put 300% efforts in loving it, right?

Physics is all about concepts and applications in daily life.

Not everyone has a typical-logical-twistable brain. Unlike me, I have an artistic brain who creates random art without thinking. That's how I differ from the rest.

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The ability to understand and apply what you have studied is rather difficult if you do not utilise your brain wisely.

It's a super easy subject if you think things at all angles. It's true that the lecturer told us, "You all are lazy to THINK!". Very precise fact that is too good to be truth. The world is like being diagnosed with this "lazi-ness" sickness easily.

Many of my classmates have dropped this particular subject. Due to overdue pressure or the inability to understand that subject further, I pretty much guess. Sad to hear, sad to know.

Nevertheless, that's a hard choice to make. I'm sure that they made the decision after countless of rational thinking. 

Yet, there are STILL people keep holding onto this subject.

"No matter what, I will NOT give up on Physics."
"I - die die also WON'T drop this subject."

That's the spirit that makes me stay alive with them. I was determined and wasn't sure with the choices that I'm holding. So dangerous and insecure. It's like a time bomb, which can explode anytime, anywhere. Somehow, the number of people dropping this "honey" here actually encouraging me to do the same like them. Oh dear, peer pressure huh?

I did not, however.

Whenever I said,
" Good god, this subject basically killing and I HATE IT. I feel like deleting it from my life!"


But at the end,
"Where's your never give up spirit? Have you really put your best effort in it? Tell me, have you?? "


That question is like my daily wake-up-call, a sense of motivation to tell me not to give up, to move on with a greater courage and say boo-yah to all the physics-related-killing-questions. I have friends, I have tutorial lecturer (Mr Chong KK), I have library and reference books. WHAT TO SCARE, I ask you, WHAT TO SCARE right.

To have better focus on Chemistry and Biology rather than twisting your brain for the dear Physics?
Oh, come on PK. Don't give so many idiotic excuses when your time management is suckass and yet you can mention that you don't have time for Physics?
Ha-ha-ha. What a joke.
You can achieve nothing in life without hard work.

Mr Chong told us a story of himself ;

"I came from a poor family. No one would even look at me because of my family background. Yet, I study very hard to gain knowledge. With this knowledge, I can win anything and there's no chance for them to look down on me. I never give up, but keep on asking my teacher all sorts of questions. There was once, I got 65 for Add Maths for the first test and to tell you the truth, that was the lowest mark that I got for my Maths EVER in my life, because previously all my Maths results are above 95. *whole class yell HOAHHH* Yes! But after I learn my mistakes and keep on doing solving problem exercises, my Add Maths marks were never lower than 95. *stunned* That's why, you must not afraid to ask. Even it's a simple question. To some of you it might be easy, but if you find it difficult, just ASK. Never be afraid to ask questions. Afterall, you will gain something at the end."

I don't know if it's a true story but he is such an inspiring person :)

Even if the story is unreal, his effort in encouraging the student to NOT give up is very impressive. ;')
This lecturer was one of the reason that I didn't drop this particular subject ever since I studied the first chapter. He made me realise that nothing is really impossible.

Keep telling myself, "If I have failed in Add Maths before and improved as time goes with my countless efforts that I poured, I CAN DO IT FOR PHYSICS TOO."

I freaking swear that I can do it. (without distraction, like the internet, of course)

Although many people is giving up, I will NOT give up.

I repeat,

I WILL NOT GIVE UP.

Though it's hard, I want to be the last one standing, keep holding on until the end of my A-level.

Better yet, 

I want to stand next to those proud Physic scorers with an A together with a star :)

Remember that, PK.

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P/S : Ever so unfortunately, the "someone" isn't appearing in my life yet, so who should I confess to other than this lovable Physics right? :b