Confused Mode On ;

Finally. After hours of spending in front of the desktop, browsing around, as usual :/, looking for pictures to describe how I feel, besides that, I am watching the 8tv quickie at tonton website, yeah the new way to watch tv or whatsoever and is in weheartit dot com plus visualize dot com searching for photos to be published in tumblr andddd (the last 'and', I promise) left a few tabs containing infos about Mass Communication which includes Journalism, Photojournalism, advertising, etc. *exhale

Ha.

So much of my multitasking. 

Apparently, and so you know, if you've been following my twitter, you'll knew that I tweeted lotsa stuffs bout' KLCC, the heart of Kuala Lumpur :)

Of course I wouldn't google "Kay Ell See See" for no reason. The maps, infos and everything that I got last night was pretty much helpful to my trip to there today with my gf <3

Mind you, 'G' stands for girl. Nothing else.

There I go.. Procastinated for awhile again. Go round and round the cyber world, editing pictures in picnik, uploading up to facebook and I am back to blog again.

Where Am I?

Ohh yes. The entire morning was good. Travelled, walked pass through the ang-mos or so you called the English peoples was so darn cool. Other than that, we enjoyed buying tickets as well, so happy that we were almost lost and we took the wrong train.

Pfffts. Where were we? Bangsar, babe.

Went off and stopped at the B station, wait for the Light Rail Transit (LRT) to go back to KL sentral again to go straight to 'Kay Ell See See' ;)

Yeah, we were awesome like that.

Reached the heart of KL at 10.50am, browsed around, can't stop wow-ing, drooling over the food and non-stop eye-ing English men. B) 

Stood in front of the Education Fair Hall at 11 pm sharp, hoping for someone to approach or at least welcome us. Too bad, it was the day of self service. The door had been opened for you, to go in or not, use your brain.
First stop was KDU. The explanation was rather convincing, gf said. HELP was what I hope to go. Been walked and received lots of brochure and signed up in those whatever forms by Segi for twice and more ang-mohs <3 and more tall people (ohh, I feel short there. now I feel the Malaysian guys (: ) and more booths compared to Midvalley's and and and I almost died of carrying those bags like a nowhere aunty. Pfffts :/

Hectic was the word.

After talked with a ang-moh from U.O.Nottingham (a Physcho lecturer) no, he ain't physco but he's a physcho teacher! , not so informative anyway, so we hurried to Pizza Hut's to call for help.
Enough of the starvation, we randomly ordered spaghetti just to make tummy happy. One thing that we loved to do was to press the "CALL" or "BILL" button real damn hard. Freaking syok I tell you.

Reached Kajang station at 5pm and yes Hallelujahh! We can finally go back homeeee (:
Was supposed to take a TAXI to go back home but thanks to Sha's kind-hearted mother, I can escape from finding myself a taxi driver to drive me home. 

She loves me and I love her. She's one of my awesomest girl friend ever :)

Our date today was pretty nice. First one and we'll be continue to hang out more than often, yes? :)
Thank you for laughing at my totally speechless embarassment(s) that I made today. I totally, I mean ALWAYS screw myself in front of the public (-,-) Oh, PK, couldn't you just stop being so messy? :S

...

Mum called. (Mandarin conversation)

How did it go? Did you collect as much information as you want?

Yes

So you make up your mind about your future already?

No

Why? 

Mum, physcho, according to many people there said it has good job perspectives here

Didn't you listen to what doctor S said that day? Didn't you look for other courses?

I did. But I just don't really fancy those business-or-medical-like-careers. 

Can't you change your interest?

*silent*

Look, one can change their own interest though, think properly okay.

*sob* Hmm.

Have you taken your medicine?

*wipes* Urm nope.

Go and have a rest.

Okay. Take care.

...
I was pissed too much to sob. I'm sorry but it's really really hard, you know to make yourself headache all over again after crossing out the list for almost five times and you finally made the decision on what are you going to do but disapprove and discourage by many many people.
Frustrated. Upset. Heart-breaking.

Clueless + Helpless = Don't know what to do.
Look, to tell the truth, I am interested in Life Sciences , Environmental Sciences, or any Biology-related subjects and Physchology. Hate Physics, *pointing to Engineering*, Economy, Politic, Construction and Electronics. Dislike Law, IT, Business, Medics or Pharmacy, Accounting, Fashion Designs and so lots more. Well, you might as well to call me to get a life instead.

Hence the leftovers are Mass Com? Education? and my interested courses? Photography? Journalism?
Ahhhh.

Why don't you go for Accounting? Good question, because I do and studied Account in high school, which I never really master them well cos' I always score a B instead of A+ though I always tell self that I can get A+ for every exam which I think it seemed to fail because I don't think I can score excellently well for SPM. So forget about it. 

Business? I sweared when I was 14 that I will not touch nor love business ever since I witnessed papa's depression. Enough said. 

My mood sucked so much a few hours ago and still suck now, having some kind of emo feelings of wanting to throw something out of the window and see the window glass cracked or worse, smashed into pieces.

Wait, are you still reading this?
God bless you.
...

Mum was suggesting you know, to go for courses that can get job easily and she advices me to study physcho when I work, like how Sue Yen sis is practicing now. :/

Haaaaaaaa. Thinking back all those lecturers saying "Please come to our workshop!" , "Don't you waste your time anymore", "Come for our Jan intake. It's on next Monday *smirks*".

is so annoying me. I might not go for any colleges cos' parents couldn't afford to pay the fees okay?
:/
Thought of depending scholarship, but the requirements are killing.me.especially.
9A's (no A- at all ) and above. 10A+ to get a full scholarship. Impossible, I tell you.
Plus, most of the scholarships doesn't offer physcho. Behhhh, BOO ME :(

So I thought of changing my mind, like Mum said. 

I got to know some info about Mass Com today. That freaking lady, (lecturer I mean) from UCTI scared me.
" Haiyoh. Why are you so quiet ah?" "You have no questions one ah?" "You see. You don't talk, I do the talking all the time" and then laughed alone.
I was uh-huh all the while and what did you expect me to talk when you are explaining?
She totally freaked me out. Advertising, PR (Public Relation), and Journalism came across my mind. But I fancy Journalism more than the other two.

"Do you love to write" yeah. "Do you love to read" yeah. "Do you.. .. .. blas" err maybe?

I can say, my answers made her speechless. Haha. I wins!
...

Googled journalism just now. I found photojournalism is interesting instead :) I suck at writing and expressing my thoughts, really.
*sigh*

Just I really really hope to find a way out of all these.
Still haven't e-mail Aunty H yet to ask her opinions. I need different point of views, seriously, especially from seniors, teachers, the experts, whoever.

Guide me to get out of this confusion world, please?

.....

PS :

Bro might bring back some crocs for us sisters. :O

And he MIGHT buying this

PowerShot SX130 IS

:D

My mood is so awesome now :)